Sydney Smiles

Sydney Smiles: August 2012

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

That damn phone call...

I know...I know... I seriously neglect this blog.

But, I currently have a lot of time on my hands, and an experience worth telling. So here I go.

In May, I woke up to a message from my brother that asked me to call him when I woke up. I knew something was wrong. He typically doesn't request phone calls the minute I wake up. So as the world seemingly slowed the passing of time, I dialed my brother.

My brother confirmed my feeling of dread when he told me our dad has lung cancer. At this point, I lost my s*@# and said "no" a lot. For a minute there, I seemingly lost control of what was coming out of my mouth, because I was seriously trying to shut the f*^% up so my brother could finish his very horrible job of giving me this terrible news but I wasn't doing a very good job because all I was managing was to ramble "No! I'm sorry. I'll be quiet..." on repeat. Anyways, I was eventually able to stop freaking out so he could tell that the lung cancer has spread to his brain and he has 6 brain tumors. [Insert more losing of s*@# here]

So, what's it like getting such bad news while so far away? It sucks! Mystery solved. Although, that one is pretty much not a mystery, is it?

It's very difficult to go about your normal life and not be home when such things are occurring. It's hard to be so far away, and not be able to do anything.

The good news is, I was able to come home. I'm actually home right now. I will be in Michigan until October.

On the bright side, I've been getting to spend a lot of time with my dad which is great. Mostly, we've been taking it pretty easy at home, watching movies and whatnot. But, I'm hoping to get out to some of Michigan's beautiful touristy spots. Perhaps, I'll even get a chance to blog about my Michigan adventures - and everyone will get a chance to to see the beauty of my home state. We are wanting to try out kayaking.

PS - My Dad is one tough guy. He is currently doing chemo and seems and looks quite well.