A valid life experience...

As I sit in Hyde Park, eating lunch, watching an ant crawl on a paper bag I begin to contemplate life. 

What qualifies as a valid life experience? Today, for one day only, I'm back at my old job. Holding down the fort while everyone is away - answering phone calls & starring at computer screens. Is this what life is all about?

Can't be. Doesn't feel write. It's certainly not looking for work & catching up on all of America's latest sitcoms on Hulu. That certainly doesn't feel fulfilling either.

So in a sea of "my life is so perfect" Facebook status updates - where is the value? The substance? The meaning?

I feel like I must have a purpose in this life - but, I have no idea what it is or how to find it.

Whatever this bit of my life is... I'm quite sure this is the sad bit... In which I don't know where I am going & I miss those already gone.

I'm sure I'll figure this out eventually & find some happiness & life satisfaction - but, for now, the search continues.


Sydney Smiles: A valid life experience...

Friday, August 2, 2013

A valid life experience...

As I sit in Hyde Park, eating lunch, watching an ant crawl on a paper bag I begin to contemplate life. 

What qualifies as a valid life experience? Today, for one day only, I'm back at my old job. Holding down the fort while everyone is away - answering phone calls & starring at computer screens. Is this what life is all about?

Can't be. Doesn't feel write. It's certainly not looking for work & catching up on all of America's latest sitcoms on Hulu. That certainly doesn't feel fulfilling either.

So in a sea of "my life is so perfect" Facebook status updates - where is the value? The substance? The meaning?

I feel like I must have a purpose in this life - but, I have no idea what it is or how to find it.

Whatever this bit of my life is... I'm quite sure this is the sad bit... In which I don't know where I am going & I miss those already gone.

I'm sure I'll figure this out eventually & find some happiness & life satisfaction - but, for now, the search continues.


posted by Samantha @ 1:09 PM   3 Comments

3 Comments:

At August 2, 2013 at 8:46 PM , Blogger Cristin said...

Sam, I completely 100% feel your pain on the job search front, and particularly on the meaningful (when will I ever use that Master's degree?) job search front. But, I hope with all the job search madness you can remember from time to time that purpose in life is about more than work. You are one of the kindest, funniest and sincere people I know. Being you for the people around you is an important purpose.
Hang in there. I'm pulling for you!

 
At August 5, 2013 at 1:34 PM , Blogger Samantha said...

Awe - C. You are so sweet you're bringing tears to my eyes! Thank you for your kindness, for noticing, & appreciating me!!!! It really means a lot!

 
At September 11, 2013 at 3:04 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello, just stumbled across your blog, as I've been googling American Expats in Sydney... It's wonderful, and I'm glad to see I'm not alone in what I'm feeling having lived in Sydney for the past 7 months.
It's harder to make friends here than I thought (referring to your blog about doing things alone). And it's nice to know that one can wander out and courageously dine solo in a foreign city, but I do very very much at times miss my friends. I lived in Washington DC for the past 5 years, went to school in Maine and grew up in NH.
I'm reaching the point in my time here, where everything has become everyday life. Work, sleep, gym...etc. It used to thrill me when I thought "I live in Sydney AUSTRALIA!" sounds so exotic...there are some differences, but it's very similar to the U.S. in a lot of ways too. People are people, I suppose. Anyhow, you're not alone in your thought process, I think we're constantly searching for the meaning our lives have. I think experiencing as much as possible helps in becoming more compassionate towards others, but doesn't necessarily bring life meaning. I think that's an internal thing. Btw - just walked by Hyde Park on the way to work today. Lovely weather!

 

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